I have now read this several times and I don’t have any words, except I am not worthy:
We, who are Jews by nature and not sinners from among the Gentiles, [yet] who know that a person is not justified by works of the law but through faith in Jesus Christ, even we have believed in Christ Jesus that we may be justified by faith in Christ and not by works of the law, because by works of the law no one will be justified. But if, in seeking to be justified in Christ, we ourselves are found to be sinners, is Christ then a minister of sin? Of course not! But if I am building up again those things that I tore down, then I show myself to be a transgressor. For through the law I died to the law, that I might live for God. I have been crucified with Christ; yet I live, no longer I, but Christ lives in me; insofar as I now live in the flesh, I live by faith in the Son of God who has loved me and given himself up for me. I do not nullify the grace of God; for if justification comes through the law, then Christ died for nothing.
I think I get the part that we cannot make it to heaven by our own works (which always makes me feel better and takes some of the pressure off — because I know I would fail alone). If we could do it on our own, then Christ died for nothing.
But I am drawn to these words: “I have been crucified with Christ; yet I live, no longer I, but Christ lives in me; insofar as I now live in the flesh, I live by faith in the Son of God who has loved me and given himself up for me.” I feel the power in these words, although I do not fully comprehend them.
Thank you God for your grace, for your love, for giving yourself up for me. Help me to give myself up for you, so that I live no longer as me, so I live no longer just in the flesh. My life is only because of you. I love you!