Come Holy Spirit

I know today is Pentecost, but the Bible opened to the Ascension and Jesus’ words about the timing of when we will receive the Holy Spirit:

When they had gathered together they asked him, “Lord, are you at this time going to restore the kingdom to Israel?” He answered them,  “It is not for you to know the times or seasons that the Father has established by his own authority.  But you will receive power when the holy Spirit comes upon you, and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, throughout Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”

Acts 1:6-8

As a control freak, it is hard to not know when the Holy Spirit will come.  I need a schedule, a date, a time.  I need to make plans… don’t I?  No — just one more reminder that it is not about my plans — I need to relinquish to God’s plans.  I need to trust and have patience.  I need to prepare myself for the Holy Spirit whenever the spirit comes.  I cannot procrastinate or put it off til tomorrow.  I need to be open and ready — and sometimes I just need to be quiet, so that I can listen.

Come Holy Spirit Come!  Renew my spirit!


Conversion and penance

Conversion and penance are just as important today as they were in St. Paul’s time.  Tonight the Bible opened to Acts and Paul’s speech at his trial:

But now I am standing trial because of my hope in the promise made by God to our ancestors.  Our twelve tribes hope to attain to that promise as they fervently worship God day and night; and on account of this hope I am accused by Jews, O king.  Why is it thought unbelievable among you that God raises the dead?  I myself once thought that I had to do many things against the name of Jesus the Nazorean, and I did so in Jerusalem. I imprisoned many of the holy ones with the authorization I received from the chief priests, and when they were to be put to death I cast my vote against them.  Many times, in synagogue after synagogue, I punished them in an attempt to force them to blaspheme; I was so enraged against them that I pursued them even to foreign cities.

“On one such occasion I was traveling to Damascus with the authorization and commission of the chief priests.  At midday, along the way, O king, I saw a light from the sky, brighter than the sun, shining around me and my traveling companions.  We all fell to the ground and I heard a voice saying to me in Hebrew, ‘Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting me?  It is hard for you to kick against the goad.’  And I said, ‘Who are you, sir?’ And the Lord replied, ‘I am Jesus whom you are persecuting.  Get up now, and stand on your feet.  I have appeared to you for this purpose, to appoint you as a servant and witness of what you have seen [of me] and what you will be shown.  I shall deliver you from this people and from the Gentiles to whom I send you, to open their eyes that they may turn from darkness to light and from the power of Satan to God, so that they may obtain forgiveness of sins and an inheritance among those who have been consecrated by faith in me.’

“And so, King Agrippa, I was not disobedient to the heavenly vision.  On the contrary, first to those in Damascus and in Jerusalem and throughout the whole country of Judea, and then to the Gentiles, I preached the need to repent and turn to God, and to do works giving evidence of repentance.  That is why the Jews seized me [when I was] in the temple and tried to kill me.  But I have enjoyed God’s help to this very day, and so I stand here testifying to small and great alike, saying nothing different from what the prophets and Moses foretold, that the Messiah must suffer and that, as the first to rise from the dead, he would proclaim light both to our people and to the Gentiles.”

Acts 26:6-23

I am struck by how similar Paul’s story and the message he received from Jesus are to the revelation from Our Lady of Fatima 100 years ago.  The children at Fatima heard messages of conversion and penance and like Paul spread that message to others.  You can read more about that here:

Paul saw the light, literally.  Since I was a child, I have been jealous of Paul because he was shown the light and heard Jesus.  (Of course, when I read about his time in prison and his persecution, I get less jealous and more grateful that I am not similarly challenged — and as soon as I type that I am struck by how weak I am.  Am I only willing to  see God if it is easy?  I hope I am stronger than that, but my initial reaction and thoughts seem to indicate otherwise.)

Dear God,

Open my eyes!  Provide me with your light and help me to share it with others.  Give me the strength to convert fully.

God, I am sorry for my sins.  I want to do penance — please show me how.  Help me to truly repent for the wrongs that I cause.  Help me to sin no more.